Fortune Teller Talks to me...

There's a haunting relationship in my life that is not good from my past or for my future. I see endings before I see beginnings. I'm Stubborn, Persuasive, Strong-headed and Creative.
Confused about my career – wishing I would do something more creative and self-rewarding. My life will a big hardship filled with struggles if I choose to change it. I hate being told what to do or others controlling me

In love relationships, I’m loved but never quite the way I want to be loved. They always don’t meet my expectations? I smile from the outside but I’m emotionally damaged from the inside, been hurt and betrayed so many times because of envy and jealousy. I’ve been hurt and backstabbed a lot. A lot of people are very envious and jealous of me. A lot of people will back stab me. I always think of others when I make decisions for myself.

I fool myself for my family and friends. Live many healthy years and die between the ages of 76-77 of old age. Generous, too generous that people take me for granted and take advantage of me. My enemies are the ones always smiling at me. I have a lot of enemies who are envious of me. Men lust me.

New York City

off to catch a flight...

I'm officially diagnosed with travel anxiety.

The last time I was on a plane; I vividly remember my heart racing. A guy sitting one row behind me on the opposite end kept talking on the phone (he had an accent between Khaleeji and Egyptian and then it turned into Palestinian) so that was a distraction that kept me thinking "where is he really from?". Anyhow, he was an Arab. Well dressed, clean jeans, waxed hair and looked a bit pretentious.

During take off, the guy starts praying. I panicked. Yes, I actually panicked. All these crazy thoughts going through my head "oh shit, is he going to do what I think he might do?". Has the media really brainwashed me to be suspecting that innocent individuals have something up their sleeves that's so evil?I kept telling myself, if he looks like he's upto something and I'm certain then I'm just going to jump up and down "I'm an Arab, please don't do anything to harm us".

Oh boy, isn't that SAD!Not to mention all the other men that I see who are long bearded or just look Eastern (Arab, Pakistani etc). My hand just slaps my chest "please god, don't let it happen". Yes, sad, really sad!

Ok, I'm off now... hope the travel anxiety subsides by the time I reach JFK airport.

Endings before Beginnings

What's the deal? some random palm reader in NYC tells me "You see endings before beginnings". That just about spoke a million words but the strange thing is that I never ever thought about it. Yes, indeed do I think of endings before beginnings - not sure why, perhaps a defense mechanism to be prepared for the worst so as time goes along, I enjoy the beginning and geared up for the ending. Sheesh, that's SAD, ok, will try to change that, how? someone tell my brains to.

A small but significant addition to the familia!

4.5 years later... I'm honored to be an Aunt to another neice. She was born today; a Cancerian.

God, I love Cancerians (my favorite people are cancerians from mom to a close cousin to a best friend and many others and now my wonderful newborn baby neice. It's unfortunate that I'm thousands of miles away and unable to be there to hold this little one like I did with my first beloved neice, the cute little impulsive daredevil Arian who is energetic, courageous and confident.. not to mention her quick wit that never ceases to flabbergast me.

On a funny note, it's a good thing that the newborn was a baby girl because my notorious neice persisted that it better be a girl first then she will be ok for the next baby to be a boy. My brother is glad that his second child is a baby girl (hehe, because of the financial burden it would have been had it been a baby boy). Now, the little girls can share everything including their clothes (I doubt it though because sis in law loves spoiling her kids and dressing up all the time - good luck bro) but be happy because your girl has always looked like a little princess and now you've got not just one princess, not two but three (including your wife!).

Congratulations... and my love to my sister in law who carried and nurtured her baby, my brother for making it happen (I bet it was no sweat) and of course to my little notorious neice who is ever so loving. Love to all!

Menstruating boy?

I was reading an article on the Pennisula Online and came across a very bizarre article. A 15 yr old boy in Bengal bleed from his penis every month and suffering from the common symptoms of menstruation - nausea, stomach ache, mood swings etc.

He was examined by the doctors and they said that the samples of his blood proved the presence of ovum.Doctors are further investigating his condition and will be running other tests....

This must be really hard for him.

Maria full of Grace

Quite a disturbing movie I must say.












Maria - this young 17 year old Columbian girl out on a life-threatening situation.

It points out oppression and lack of opportunity.

The details of risks, determination, emotion by emotion, suspense and so on is incredibly saddening.T

his film is not just a movie, it's factual (it's more of a documentary). One of the actors in there has actually dealt with the circumstances this movie dealt with.

What Maria went through was really a spiritual and physical ordeal. Nevertheless, a fantastic movie. In a nutshell, it's about the way drugs is routed from Colombia to the US.

Go figure!