....changes inside...

mystery after mystery, infection after infection
unknown causes, uncertain diagnosis
no validation, I know they've done this before
I know they've made mistakes, I just have to let it go
I know I've got to deal with it, I just have to self-diagnose

Infection for month after month...
What is it? just a weak immune system?
Why is the swelling growing on the right side of my face?
Why does it feel unfamiliar on my finger tips?
And oh, how did this new swelling appear by my neck?
This all feels new...

Follow ups, check ups, demands, questions,
I am just begging for answers
For one consistent answer
All of you are the experts, MDs, Specialists.. u name it
Tell me something that sounds the same
Tell me you are reading my report
Tell me you see me, a human being just like you
I feel too, I am not wasting your time... my time is being wasted too
I am concerned, I don't like being here... but this is a place where we come
A place where you help us clear our heads, and give us some comfort
Show me, I beg you
Show me that you do your job with some humanity, responsibility and passion
Your responsibility is to diagnose, treat and cure... at least do one thing right...just one!